The Barker family is expanding!! Yes, you heard right. Actually many of you have already heard, its just taking me forever to blog about it. :-)
Joe and I found out many weeks ago that we are expecting baby Barker #2. We weren't sure how long we would wait to tell people. It was becoming difficult around week 7. I told one friend and figured I might as well tell others. So, the phone calls began to close friends and then I let the world know on Facebook.
This explains the lack of energy and exhaustion mentioned in the last post. First, this pregnancy is different from the start. We knew right away, whereas we didn't know till I was 10 weeks pregnant with Jonas. (if you are wondering how we didn't know, I can explain in a personal email) :-) I have been shocked at how tired I have been with this pregnancy, so early on. I'm sure a lot has to do with taking care of a 1.5 year old every day. And I'm hoping this pregnancy will just be different for me altogether.
As many of you know, our first miracle came 6 weeks early. It was scary and a shock and something I don't want to experience again. However, if it does happen again, we have been there, done that and will be more prepared and know how to better handle the situation with NICU doctors. We did not like the one we had the first time.
I have different desires and goals for this pregnancy. And the scary thing is I have NO idea if I will be able to accomplish them. God knows exactly when this child will be born and how it will all occur. My faith is being put to the test to make decisions now and totally trust in God whether the outcome is what I hope for or not. And this could potentially involve a lot of money or not so much. However the birth happens we have to be at complete peace we made the right decision. This has been hard and weighing on my heart and mind so much lately. I am 9 weeks preggers now and I need to make a decision soon.
This could be a very long post and I'm not sure how much to write...
I think I will go one with the prayer requests. Will you please pray for us?
1. Migraines. Ugh. I cringe just typing the word. I have a history of migraines. They are hormonal. I had a HUGE influx of them while pregnant with Jonas. I can't imagine having the same amount and taking care of a toddler. To date, I have had 3 with this pregnancy.
2. Peace. Please pray as we seek the right thing to do for our birth plan. I need to be at peace and I need to know Joe is at peace the same way. We'll share our birth plan when we make our decision.
3. Breastfeeding. Huh? :-) One of the hardest obstacles to get over after Jonas was 6 weeks old, was the fact he couldn't/I couldn't breastfeed. We tried and tried. I put a huge effort towards it and gave myself a goal to keep trying till his due date. It was not God's plan for us and it broke my heart. Praise the Lord, I have a deep trust in Him and know His way is best.
4. Heat. Go ahead laugh...:-) Last summer was one of the worst summers in the history of this city. The temps were hot ALL the time. The humidity was so so high. I want to do more with Jonas this summer, since he is older, and be able to enjoy it while I'm fat!
Ok, so I'm reminiscing today of the wonderful gift God gave us with Baby Jonas. It is very weird to go through the emotions that all parents go through with baby #2. I know I am going to have my hands full and life will change dramatically. I know God continues to instill in us, more and more love for the multiple children he gives us. I can't wait for Jonas to be a big brother. He has had a little bit of experience with his two baby cousins being born in the last 6 months. :-) Jonas has been a great first baby. He is a wonderful sleeper and that affects so much in all of our lives. I PRAY baby #2 will love his sleep just as much. Joe and I both desire another boy! :-)
So, here are some pictures of the end of my pregnancy with Jonas and his birth. He was so beautiful at just 5 lbs 2 oz. He had a mature face from the beginning. So handsome!